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No sleep tonight,

This has been a great today. Not unlike any other days, though. If it wasn't bad, then it was great because I'm so used to having bad days.



After school was adorable, besides the whole "getting beat up" part. Maddi and I have been talking about starting a book club a lot lately, and we finally made the first step. We both checked out the same book, Helter Skelter, and we're going to read it on our own, and meet up every Monday night to discuss it. We really want other people to join. It would be really fun, and I'm so looking forward to reading my book tonight. It's really long, so hopefully it will last me a few months. Even though it's due back on my birthday, December 2nd.

Another slice of good news! Me, Maddi, Kenzie, Kelsey, Megan, Krista, Laura (hopefully) and whoever else wants to join, are going to meet up on Sunday and wash cars and walk dogs for money. We're doing this to raise money to have We Watched Stars Expire play at my house show/birthday party. They live far and gas is expensive, so they're charging $30.00 and if we get more money than that, then Maddi and I get free T-shirts! I can't wait. I still need to find someone to make the flyers for me, because I have no creativity in that department at all, whatsoever. I wish December 13th wasn't a month away so I wouldn't have to wait so long. I guess the anticipation will be worth it though. Maddi is quite the event planner. It's my surprise birthday party! I already know about it though, because that's not the surprise part! The people coming don't know that I know, that's the surprise part.
I just found out that... DYLAN THOMAS CAN'T PLAY! I'm so so so so so upset. :( That makes me want to talk in capital letters until I die. But oh well. I guess it's a good thing, because 9 bands would take up too much time.




It made me sad when you threw a rock at her today. Mostly because we both know you did it on purpose.


BUT! It brightened up my day when I found out my brother made a dollar bill ring for me.

Say hello to

happiness.

Sunday nights,

I know I have a lot of thinking to be done tonight. This weekend was great though.

I'm so so so thankful that you're doing this for me. It really, really means a lot. Nothing is ever about me. It's never me that people do nice things for. But this, this is one of the nicest things that someone has ever done for me. So thank you. Thank you a whole bunch.

It makes me so happy,

I've learned today, that my History teacher isn't cutting his hair or beard until there is world peace.
That put a smile on my face, and the faces of everyone I shared that with today.

I just love it.

Being lied to, and feeling so guilty.
How would I feel if it was happening to me? If this situation was the other way around? I'm sure I would be very, very upset. But I can't stop talking to him. As bad as I feel, he's adorable.

I feel like there's people that I really need to hang out with. Maddi and I used to keep a list in my phone. That got old. Now it's just in my mind. I've got so many people. I just can't find the time to make plans with them. I'm not very good at that stuff at all.


I'm going to a fundraiser dinner tonight at Red's Barbecue.



Isn't it just saddening how from one minute to the next, everything changes? As if nothing even happened in the first place. That probably makes no sense to you.

How goes it?

Completely out of things to write about these days.

I don't have what most of you do. That person you like beyond belief. Someone you can talk to your friends about. Your heart melting as you tell the stories of how great he is to you. I am longing for that. Who knows when someone will come around. Waiting isn't going to speed things up though. I know it, I've been through it. I AM going through it now. I feel like I'm waiting for someone to just pop into my life. I've realized though, that will NOT happen...anytime soon, at least.

And I

take it back, by the way.

THIS.

Hello late morning, early afternoon.

Thanks again,

for bringing these people into this thing called life.

At sun down.

How could I have been so blind to everything?
This world is full of so many bad things, and people. Like yourself.

Oh,After hearing all of those stories, I don't believe how unaware I was this whole time.
I liked you longer than I've even known anyone else, practically. You were the first person I ever really did like. I didn't think you were like the rest of them. I told everyone that you weren't, because you were "different". I told them how you weren't like your friends. That you just hung out with them, and didn't participate in all the cruel things they did to people. Because, that's exactly what you told me. Was I really believing it? Or was I just forcing myself to, even though, deep down, I knew you were making everything up. That all of that was just lies. I guess I was wrong. Obviously I had made a fool out of myself, believing all of that. But now I know.

How I could have been tricked? and I've lost all respect for you.

You know what?

Talking to an old friend again. Talking about whats new in life. Things you didn't get to experience with them while you were grown apart.

Trying to

explain to Maddi how to upload a picture onto this.



I really loved the sky that day.

Thank you so much,

mother nature. Yeah right. I'm not going to like this. Until next week, of course.

And really, did that really just happen? No, I'm not talking about the presidential, politic stuff, I'm talking about, did I just see that? I didn't think anything else like this would happen this time, I shouldn't jump to conclusions so fast, now should I?



I'm hoping for a really good weekend. Friday, and Saturday already have a lot in store for me.

Today at PE,

I witnessed the most adorable thing. While everyone was socializing on the bleachers, and not caring about anything else except their conversations with their friends, I was in awe with the world, and the people in it. Across the basketball courts, on the other side of the gym was a mentally challenged girl dancing. Just about the whole period, dancing. She didn't care what anyone thought about her, or said and I admired it so much. I wish I had no cares like that, I wish I wasn't afraid of the truth, and I wish I wasn't letting life pass me by without being thankful for everything and everyone who make up my life.

While everyone is so caught up in the person they like, I have nobody. I can say that I don't like/ have a thing with anyone right now. A part of me is upset about it, and another part is so glad I don't have to go through the hurt, and sadness that everyone around me is dealing with.


I hate how you don't notice it. Everything I do for you. I feel like you don't care. I feel like it's all going to waste. But, I can't talk to you about it. It's just something I'll let pass, and maybe you'll soon realize how upset it's making me. Maybe not, who knows. I'll try not to let it bother me.



I have a new secret, too.












If I told you this was all I needed, I wouldn't be lying.
Thank you, for putting those three in my life.
Thank you.
Thank you.

Mixed signals.

We all seem to be pros in that subject.
How come this is happening? What did he do, what did I do, what did they do to deserve it?

I didn't get to see the one band I went to see.
I didn't get to listen to the one song I wanted to hear.
I didn't get the one night of fun I was hoping for.
Instead, all I got into was another mess.


Too bad the sad things are the easiest to write about...
I've got a lot that I want to say, but I'm still figuring out how to say it.
Maybe some things are better off left unsaid?